8.13.2017

dear husband and your honestly genuine, simple, bewildered question.

mister to me earlier today:
umm, sooo...don't take this the wrong way, mister {always a great way to start a conversation, right?},
but....{enter long pause}
umm, so is THIS {sweeps his hands pointing around the room} what the inside of your brain looks like?

oh, silly fat five...how long have we been together? and you are just asking this now? i feel like you've been living like lloyd christmas all these years thinking, "so you're saying there's a chance!" that's so cute that you continue to hold onto hope that i'll suddenly be tidy and orderly.😊

i hope this little video helps give you a tiny bit of the insight that you were looking for because this is just a teensy, weensy sliver of the bedlam that takes place 24/7 in this noggin of mine. 
twenty-four/seven. no joke🤦‍♀️😋

*warning: type a people need to watch while sitting down and probably with an adult beverage nearby.

also, i would like to dedicate this video to any and all people {you know who you are} that have ever helped me clean/organize my room, desk, apartment, kitchen or whatever so i could go out and avoid grounding in high school or just to save your own sanity so as not to have to look at my brain chaos anymore.😘



xo,

sanford

7.23.2013

something found.

a little throwback jack :)

oh!!! sweet baby jack and that bib!
the trough.
they were best friends :)
baby jack loved his food.
thank goodness for that trough
that helped keep it within reach
until he consumed
every
last
bite
...even while sleeping.
my little jackie poo poo.
xoxoxo

5.01.2013

dear really sleepy head mister.

here's the reason i couldn't go to bed....

i stumbled onto this sweet anniversary gift you made for me a long time ago {kleenex ready?}


i am so blessed and grateful
that God put you in my life.
that we have this little family.
that we have other family.
we have awesome friends.
and we can't forget ThE BeST dogs.
all to share and make memories with.

i have so very easily sadly forgotten
about this perspective
and way of viewing life.
things move way too fast for
all the pressure and the worry.

it's time to truly live through
faith, joy, hope, perseverance
and not being afraid
to simply...stop.

check the balance of things.

making mistakes{sometimes BIG ones}.
priorities out of whack.
these are human things.
they can actually help
to make us better people
and improve our lives.
 
it is just our job to communicate,
listen, learn and grow together.
so easy peasy, right?!
:) heehee...
i guess i should add
it's good every now and then
to laugh at ourselves too.


thank you, mister.
{hope i didn't keep you up all night!}

more.

xoxo-
sanford

2.21.2013

dear me.

i am holding you accountable.

for the first time in FOREVER, you decided to be 'creative'/start a project/change things around.
wuh-what??!!

i was kinda starting to feel like you've forgotten who you are...

you makes messes. lots of them. piles.
so frustrating and wonderful at the same time.
{mister, i am talking to myself (shocking!) so, you may not comment!}

you have really big, grand, weird ideas and talk about them a lot.
you used to find a way to follow through on them.

you procrastinate. that's when you do your best work.
you also think waaayyyy too much about things which is why procrastinating works in your favor...you don't have to re-do anything if you wait until the last minute! ;)

but for the last year or so, you are pretty much just here.
blah. life. busy. blah. existing. sigh.

i have no dramatic, deep, inspiring, wise things to say or ponder.
but instead, in the pettiest of manors, i am hereby holding you accountable to make some new messes, hoard some homeless objects, and basically create something to procrastinate about!
get out of your hormonal coma or
things-are-so-complicated-when-you-put-your-big-girl-panties-on-mood
and do some senseless sh@t!
remember who you are.
it's so much easier that way.
geesh.

you got all willy-nilly-crazy on monday when the sun came out and started these:



so, there.

i posted them.
you are now accountable to finish them.

now, i'm not going to get all crazy and give you a deadline ;)
but hope it's just a little kick in the rear.

okay.
lecture over.

word.
sanford


2.18.2013

dear twelve.

you've taken another one of my babies :(
where did my blonde-curled, pudgy, stinker go?!

happy birthday jack!
xo, mamakat

1.09.2013

so really?!

this guy is ready for high school? class of 2017?
may i remind you that his parents are very young, although they may lack several spots of hair and have the combined energy level of a 100 year old turtle. really??!!! 
they are way too young and remember far too much from their own youths.
hmmm.
for i have heard karma is a bitch.
if that was what i believed, i'd have moved us to a dooms day bunker long ago ;)
i just can't believe this guy is going to be off and out of here in a quick bat of an eye.
i haven't had all my best times with him! so, i guess i shall look to what his future holds.
he's kinda smart and kinda witty. he gets it.
and it's been so fun to just recently really enjoy that with him.

to my little lolo,
whatever you want is yours! you pave your way.
although you might live in a barn due to your eating habits ;), you can have anything you set your mind to ahead of you.
i just ask that you refrain from ending any of your thoughts with the standard, dad-taught, "your mom."
by the time this will apply, your mom will be mental toast, yearning to be on a beach somewhere to shell and jellyfish 24/7 drowning her tears from your leaving in a pensacola wave.
your faith in yourself and your faith in God will lead you to your most amazing adventures!
in the famous words of sandra boynton, "moo, baa, la la la"
remember that and you're golden! :)
love you more!
xo,
mamakat

8.08.2012

dear birthday.

thank you.

these guys were amazing!
there was no fighting and they even took the standard self-time birthday pic with no fuss :)
{well, almost...}


a lot of thinking in my head on this day of 39.
which, for those who know me well,
is a scary thought considering how much over-thinking i already do.

i feel very much like i've been a broken record for the past year...
"i am just SO ready for
this year to be over!"

i've said this in almost every aspect of my life for a year.
and every time i hear it leave my mouth,
i truly mean it and want to take it back at the same time.

i won't bore you with all the details and be poor.pitiful.pearl
and list all of things that
sucked, broke, went wrong or scared the buh-jeezus out of me.

instead, here's what it boils down to:



if i can't learn to do this, life will always be uphill.
and, as jack told me, bright and early this birthday morning...
mom!
you're thrity-nine!
today, you are officially on top of the hill!

i can't let him down now, can i!

xo.


8.06.2012

when i close my eyes...

this is what i see:




















so thankful for eyelids!
happy sigh.
:)
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3.07.2012

dear self.

why can't you simply do this?


just curious...

xo,
sanford

12.22.2011

crack. me. up.

Apparently, this is what happens when you are not watching....
(this was found in the form of a slideshow in my e-mail to be printed for 'advertising purposes')



darn it.
i was ready ship them to boarding school, but i guess there's a closer option to home :)

12.15.2011

dear shannon.


never in a million years, way back when we were in jr. high and high school and you took me with your mom and peepsy to church did i ever in my wildest dreams realize what that meant...
home.

never in those far away moments did i foreshadow the place where i would get married.
or when we were there did i realize my babies would be baptized there.

it's where i remember going to midnight service with 'eric's' family and friends....my family and friends.

the place that my kids grew up high-5-ing father jay as the went up for communion.

our home on sunday mornings for many years teaching sunday school and making new friends, little and tall.

the place where we made our own new family traditions like:
sunrise service on easter, rain or shine or strep throat or freezing temperatures....
there's nothing like it!
&
making our new family spot in the back row of church with the wiggly knuckleheads.
{i prefer to think of it as if we were sitting in the back of the bus. that's the best seat, right? ;) }

the place where fisch was baby jesus, fred and i were mary and joseph and the boys were shepherds for epiphany one year and on the way there one of the shepherds proceeded to upchuck all over himself in the car, yet ever so conveniently in front of walmart where we proceeded to change the shepherd just in time for his appearance and make a quick getaway.
{one of the many instances where the back row comes in handy, i might add}

okay, i'm starting to ramble, but you get the picture, right?
and randomly {or, actually, probably not} it's the place that i now also call work.

can i just say that there's no other place where you can work sometimes crazy, odd hours and feel like you're not holding it or anything at all together well, but when you take just a moment to stop and treasure who's home you are truly in...

 it's amazing


thank you for introducing me to my heart & my future...
i'm thinking you had some help from higher above :)

xoxo,
your sbf always

12.08.2011

dear boys.

thank you for adding to the list of things i never knew i'd say....





"CAN I JUST PEE FOR ONCE BY.MY.SELF????!!!!!
NO ZOMBIE DOGS.
NO SUICIDE BOMBERS.
NO NERFTASTIC LAUNCHES.

JUST ME, THE TOILET AND MY PEE.
please."

yep. i did not really picture myself using that one.

xo,
mamakat

11.16.2011

dear samsung.

thank you for making a faulty product and finding every loophole not to make the inexpensive and easy fix yourself.

thank you for making me so unbelievably irritated that it would cost more to fix this few years old, 40 inch hunka rather than buy a new one.

too bad for you that i really, really, really missed my right before bed tv zone out time and was determined to fix this thing myself.
gasp.
did i really just do that?
you bet your sweet self i did!


then, off to my handy dandy work bench i went.
oh, mr. soldering iron, how i've missed you so :)

fast forward about 30 minutes later (well, minus the unexpected added 20 minutes needed to go to radio shack to get new, new capacitors due to some big furry animal that decided they looked like a good snack. nice.)

and, here ladies and gentlemen, is a very happy me. zoning.

ahhhhh.

i'd like to say thank you to my fellow you tubers and radio shack for your help.
and to samsung, suck it™.

yours truly,
sanford


11.13.2011

good-bye bacon.








much better says one mamakat.
:)


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11.11.2011

dear mister.


can you believe it's just around the corner?

more.
sanford

9.02.2011

dear pigeon.

thank you for helping me to face my fears.
(anyone reading this that doesn't have a clue as to my fear,
complete pigeon video and pics will be posted though out.
ps you may need a hearing aid after viewing. apologies.) 
 
apparently, i am deathly afraid of your type.
your beady eyes and their powerful stare,
you following me everywhere i go,
your evesdropping, you being in my house,
you turning my toilet into your backyard.
but...over the past few days
and, really, the past few weeks
my fondness of you feathered creatures has grown. (ever.so.slightly) 
 
 
however! this is by NO MEANS an invitation
to come in again and hangout while we watch man vs food our something.
if that were to occur again, you will then, my friend, become the food.
just sayin. 
 
to explain my change of heart or my new found courage,
i believe this sweet text from a very dear friend this morning explains how it best...
anne:
As much as you hate that bird. .......superstition says often a loved one that has
passed comes to visit in the form of a bird. Either as a farewell or a
comfort. A smile so to speak. Often they will linger in the house for a while before
leaving with ease.

me:
tears and laughter!
i am totally with you and believe it too...just so happens jack's first words after
we realized he wasn't leaving saturday was, "hey, mom, i think he's papa frank." and
smiled.
sweet boy!

anne:
embrace the bird! 
 
we love you, frank 
(and thank you, anne!  xoxo) 
here is:
the tale of my pigeon
on a lovely saturday afternoon, while relaxing with friends,
a lone pigeon made himself known.
realizing that this feathered creature did not seem to want to leave,
we made a few gentle efforts to help push him on his way.
after MANY attempts hurling sunglasses, bread, baseballs, nerf darts,
frisbees, and dive sticks, it occurred to us that this pigeon may be hurt.
awwwwweee. poor little guy.
no harm in letting him be for the evening.
he may need the night to rest and be on his merry way.
(or if like jack stated that evening, if it was papa frank,
surely he had seen us, said hello and could see that we were all doing okay.) 
 
it's now sunday morning.
he's gone, right?
 
sure he's not.
 
the days to follow were filled with as much bird drama, comedy
and action, but mostly bird poop, than one can take.
although we wished him to flee, we had now lovingly come to know him as 'major medical'.
 
major, you have bonded our family in ways i never knew possible.
but... if you feel you must go now.
please, shoo.
 
we will figure out how to deal with our broken hearts after you are gone.
in fact, i plan to invite my friends; clorex, power-washer and very-large-keg
over as soon as you leave to help heal our broken hearts.
xo, my sweet stalker.
 -sanford 

here are a few memories of our time together
that we shall never forget.....
you can run, but you can not hide.
shoo!
umm, yeah. sure there's some food for you right here in this nice little net. come on in, sir.
alright! time for the big guns (or brooms)! mama kat's makin her move.....s-l-o-w-l-y.
SUCCESS! ...and the aftermath :)


ps.
he's still here,
but back outside :)

8.01.2011

dear mom-lady.

me hiding under the table wasn't a clue, huh?
you and your new friend that lives where your face used to be are kinda invading my personal space.
if i put my ears like this and give you really sad, pitiful eyes, might you kindly hit the road with that thing?

thanks,
mosby

7.31.2011

dear new camera.

you are the bee's knees. (insert happy sigh)

i really like you.
a lot.

oh the places we will go.
and the people we will annoy.

good times, my friend. good times.

xo,
sanford

ps. thank you, mister!!!
you do realize what you have done, right? :)
xo

7.26.2011

dear schedules.

apparently, you are okay as long as not fabricated by a grown-up.


xo,
sanford

7.22.2011

dear phone, wi-fi, internet & computer.

you have become my addiction. plain and simple.
without you, i am lost.
you have succeeded in helping me completely lose all normal functions such as thinking for myself, thinking about others and accomplishing any goals (unless reading about accomplishing goals was a goal).

the time has come to wean myself back to humanity and doing things like having actual conversations with people, not know or care that j.lo's getting divorced, not look at things that i'd love to do to my imaginary house one day, and not have my kids ask me if i'm looking at facebook.
ugh. low point.

for i shall miss you.
but, you see, in approximately sixteen days i will be heading here
with these people.
we will:
trek across many a stinky states; pee numerous times; fight over who-sits-where and why-can't-you-stop-kicking-my-chair?!; hear "i'm hungry!" seventeen hundred times along with 'when are we going to be there?''; eat insane amounts of circus peanuts; find our 'vacation song'; try and fail (as usual) to get pictures of the welcome to the state of  ___  signs... all to get to our destination.

and i bet we won't miss our usual two buck pit-stop here.

shortly upon arrival, the unpacking begins...
his
hers
(as long as the drawer shuts, right?)

see.
i haven't needed you yet to do any of those things.
i am determined to free myself from the super glue that seems to have you eternally hooked to my hand and the mush you are turning my brain into.

i need you to check the time and use for an alarm clock. umm, no. that's the lovely thing about my friend, the beach. all i need is time to spend with my family. not to be anywhere else or with anyone else or to do anything else.

i need you to take the thousand billion pictures i take wherever and whenever i am anywhere. well, what do you know, i own this thing called a camera. huh.

i need to text just one more little thing...i'll just stop there. b/c i text like i talk and i ramble....about nothing to anyone who will listen (sorry, you all know who you are). thank you to the seashells and the jellies who will i hunt (and talk to) incessantly to fill this need..."i'm just gonna find one more."

i need to waste more energy on reading up on the world news around us. stupid politicians, violence, idiot celebrities (although i totally spy on them), a bankrupt country, it's going to be freaking hot today and for then next month...DEPRESSING.
i'm pretty sure i will be able to enjoy the news that:
a) my kids are having fun, probably doing this












2) mister will be able to let go and finally be able to some of this
c) that we will be so blessed to be in the presence of simple nature and beauty and stillness like this




so, my dear friends, connected-electronics, i hope you will enjoy your beak as much as i will be enjoying mine.

when we meet again, let's dine over diet coke water and zingers yogurt (okay, maybe i'll just stick with ridding one addiction at a time) to discuss the new and improved terms of our relationship.

until then...


xo,
sanford 

ps.
i totally blame you for this completely obnoxious writer's block i've had!